Ramblings

All right, I confess, I have been very remiss in blogging this week. It has been a busy week with work and every time I sit down to try to write my brain collapses into a pile of mush. Someone on another blog (I think it was Jennifer at Conversion Diary) said that the surest way to notice everything around your house that needs to be done is to sit down to write. I can attest to the truth of that, and yet my house is not nearly as clean as you would think it would be…oh wait, I have two small live-in tornados.

Of course every time I sit and stare at a blank screen just begging to be filled with words I think, “Is this it? Have I reached the end of what I know to write about?” Does anyone remember the old commercial for who knows what where the guy is surfing the internet and comes to a screen that says “You have reached the end of the internet.” No? Just me? Ok then, moving along…

I think that it would be just about as impossible to truly reach the end of everything there is to write about as it would be to reach the end of the internet. Life continues to happen and as I told someone this week “If I get a blank look on my face it probably means something has grabbed my fancy and I’m writing in my head.” (In grade school they called it daydreaming and I often got in trouble for it.)

So far this has been a month of stretching, of exploring dreams and testing my abilities. I’ve learned that I can, in fact, cook dinner for over sixty people and do it well enough that they come back for seconds (granted, I have very carefully written step-by-step instructions on how and when to do everything…except for the measurements needed). Thanks to our Life Keys gifts discovery class at church I am discovering that there is a reason I hated auditing with a passion normally reserved for spiders and other creepy insects. I am learning that I’m more creative than I think I am. (My problem is that I’m a creative perfectionist…) I am learning patience in waiting and trust in God as I wait for the meeting with Gates’ Aspergers assessment team to find out the results of their testing. (January 30th is the big day.) And, I’m learning balance as I try to create space in my life for everything that is important.

Somewhere in all that mess I am sure there are more blog posts waiting to happen. And if not, well, come visit me for coffee instead as I am sure my house will be very clean!